never publish. There have been many of these posts deleted over the last four and a half years- Bones was a lot braver than me about publishing stuff when her Mum died. NB Ellen have just lost their lovely dog Maggie. Their hearts are broken.
We do, however, adjust eventually although it's difficult to believe that that can ever be at the time. So now I'm going to say this and press the publish button (I think).
When you lose a pet you lose every part of your daily routine - you lose the "morning boys" here are the biscuits and the afternoon cuddles and the visits to neighbours, and the sheer enchantment and pride that you enjoy when other people engage with them. They are part of every minute of your every waking day-it hurts when you lose them - it really hurts. You keep putting out one too many dinners and wondering why you fill the water bowl only half as often.
When you lose your mum it's very different although my Mum was not part of my daily routine and engagement and, sometimes, I didn't want to go back and visit because something exciting was happening elsewhere on the river; so that loss is only slowly coming on board. I keep wanting to ring her and she's not there. I wanted to tell her what happened at the hospital today and she's not there.
If you've never loved a dog or cat and lost it you won't understand where I and NB Ellen are coming from.
Anyone that engages your love leaves you devastated when they go
We do, however, adjust eventually although it's difficult to believe that that can ever be at the time. So now I'm going to say this and press the publish button (I think).
When you lose a pet you lose every part of your daily routine - you lose the "morning boys" here are the biscuits and the afternoon cuddles and the visits to neighbours, and the sheer enchantment and pride that you enjoy when other people engage with them. They are part of every minute of your every waking day-it hurts when you lose them - it really hurts. You keep putting out one too many dinners and wondering why you fill the water bowl only half as often.
When you lose your mum it's very different although my Mum was not part of my daily routine and engagement and, sometimes, I didn't want to go back and visit because something exciting was happening elsewhere on the river; so that loss is only slowly coming on board. I keep wanting to ring her and she's not there. I wanted to tell her what happened at the hospital today and she's not there.
If you've never loved a dog or cat and lost it you won't understand where I and NB Ellen are coming from.
Anyone that engages your love leaves you devastated when they go